My Dad
i had a really difficult time the first month after dad passed away…i had a heavy feeling of guilt and regret…..i was the one who found dad…that was hard…i wanted so badly for him to “wake up” even just for a short while so i could tell him what a good dad he had been to me and how much i loved him etc. the last couple times i was there to take care of my dad i was so frustrated with him! He had become so “mean” and demanding toward my mom…..my mom was at her emotional end etc…..so i was very firm with him most of the time caring for him and continued to try to convince him that he had to be nicer to mom and appreciate her etc etc…..that last week i particularly just took care of him (which i always loved doing….but….yet i was so upset with him for how ungrateful and demanding he was being) by the end of the evening i would be so exasperated with him i remember telling chuck i didnt even want to pray with him when i tucked him in and most of those nights i didn’t….:O(
